Separate Lives

by East Old Topside

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This entire EP is about losing loved ones and how we go about dealing with it from a Christian's perspective.

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released July 25, 2014

Producer: Miah Lajuenesse (Sound Lair)

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Track Name: Providence
One day, two days, where has all my time gone?

It seems just minutes ago I was sitting with you taking for granted our time together.

Providence!

Losing you has been the hardest thing, and growing old without you there still has an eerie ring.

Over time I know that I will soon fade away, and I’m comforted by the idea of seeing your face, but wow!

Here I am now quoting the only things that I know how!

Romans 8:28 rings through my mind, but sometimes it’s so hard to find you…through all this pain.

God, I’m trying to be the new man. I’m trying to submit to the King’s hand, but I fail!

Each time I fall though I’m lifted from these depths and I’m reminded that everything I am rests in you.

Cover me spirit because I’m naked now! Cover me Spirit because I don’t understand how life goes on after losing your best friend.

I’m learning to lean though on your everlasting arms.

I know that outside of your rule no thing can be done, the blood of Christ continuously washing me until I become one.

I long for that day. I long for your grace.
Track Name: Alone
I live in agony.

A soul once with life, living free in love.

What's been taken from me will never return.

Good comes to those who wait, well where'd that go?

I've been waiting for years with patience unmatched yet there you go.

Slipping farther from life with every passing second.
Counting breaths, I rely on machines to tell me life's the same, but a few moments pass and I'm forever changed.

Anger is all I know, loneliness my new name.

Never alone, the saying goes... breeds hatred for what seems like lies I'm told.
“Over and over you'll get over it, you'll grow old.”

Well my heart's old now, scarred from the pain of losing all I've ever known.

Why can't I have it back? Haunted by a creaking home, searching for you in rooms you'll never go.
Why can't I have it back? Haunted by a creaking home, searching for you in rooms you'll never get to go.

Weeks nor months do a thing for my soul.

A lifeless heartbeat waiting until it's my chance to go

I don't want empathy, I just want relief.

Six Decades of joy, I'd trade my life for you to have one more second of breath, but my family reveals true humanity.

Unplug everything!

Unplug everything, well my life's tied to that machine.I cant walk down this road, not again.

I've been so lonely, Lord. Lord where have you been?

You said You'd send Your mercy, send Your grace for my soul.

I only feel alone.

Where has Your countenance gone?

Why have You frowned on me?

Years of devotion and in the end You feel like an enemy.

Am I the one who's lost You, or did You really leave me?

The months go by, but the feeling's still the same…so empty.
Track Name: Brittle Bones
What kind of body is this?

Every action begets inaction.

We're stepping forward but jumping back until frustration ceases all further movement.

I have inherited the sickness of generations that refuse to love.

There is a cancer in my bones that runs so deep.

Hatred I thought I'd never know exists deep in this marrow.

Attempts at love end with insurrection.

These limbs would rather rot away than invoke the love for which they were made.

Can the world know love from bones that are so wretched?

Meant to stay young forever but caught in the emptiness of quarrels and lies.

Crumbling with each and every step that I take,
these brittle bones refuse to acknowledge the purpose for which they were created.

Now we’re Left with but one choice, we can work together as one body or perish and rot away as separate limbs.

Now I've seen death and I’ve seen the fruit of life,
and I know the son of man, and I know that we as man,
for us, death is more aptly chosen. Let love inside.

Let me breathe, breath again.
It’s been so long since I’ve felt your love.

Now I see that can’t rely on myself.

Now I see.

Growing older, my bones grow brittle but they were meant for fruitful life, but there is hate polluting their very essence.

Let love inside.

We cannot go on in misery seeking hate over the fount of love.

The fount of life begging us to seek it once again.

Let love inside.

Crumbling with each and every step that I take, these brittle bones refuse to acknowledge their creation.

Crumbling with each and every step that I take, these brittle bones refuse to acknowledge creation.

Let love be genuine,
abhor what is evil,
hold fast to what is good.
Love with brotherly affection.

Serve the Lord.
Track Name: New Solace
Take another step your almost there.

Just another mistake away from regretting everything.

I can only hope that one day I will see your face again.

I can’t stand the type of person that I am without You.

Just remember that I can always come back.

I'm putting away this filthy life that I've called home.
Sick of the filth that I have wallowed in.
Naming destitution my closest friend,
prostituting my heart to

Separate Lives.

Now I can see this for what it is - I've been torn between life and death,
but by no will of my own could I find life.

Sinking deep into my heart is the daunting knowledge that there is no longer a home for me here.

I apologize for what I have become.

Images of betrayal have burned my eyes, setting in motion

memories that I could never forget.

I was once a slave to my flesh, but I fought to be done with my old master.
I never realized I had no strength to win.
Before You, I never knew

that peace was deafening.

I never knew freedom was a truth for me.

I pour my heart into selfish passions with destructive ends, but
You refused to leave my side, bearing

New Solace.

Take another step you're almost there.
Just another mistake away from regretting everything.
I can only hope that one day I will see your face again.
I can’t stand the type of person that I am without You.
Just remember that I can always come back.

Did we plant that seed?
Did those people see?
Will we ever see you again?

I'm so sorry I only think about myself...
Track Name: Authority
I will be in control of everything.
This is my life. This is my way.
I won't be kept from anything that I desire.

WHAT A JOKE.

What I thought I deserved crumbled until nothing remained.

In my weakest moment I understood my righteousness is rags.

Outside of Truth I have no worth.
As I sat in doubt of eternity the galaxy circled and left me with a glimpse of truth.

Who has authority to hang the stars?
You who made the dead to walk in strange and beautiful fury and animate the strongest ocean tide.

Yet, have not forgotten me, the least of Your creation.

Why me? Why have you loved me so?
I don't deserve Your love, but I’m just another broken reflection, a shadow of what I used to be.

Still wanting me after all this time, how can you accept me?
Darkness covered my heart for so long that I forgot what it was to know the truth.

Realizing this terrifying fact

I am the most selfish man I've ever known.

Setting aside my selfish ambitions I can see as your hand hung each star.

You who made the dead to walk in strange and beautiful fury and animated the strongest ocean tides,
and yet, you look upon me and call me worthy of your love.

I don’t deserve this…this grace!

Now fall the stars from the sky!
My heart beats your name!